It sneaks up on you.
You don’t see it coming.
I started hiding when people came over. Found myself just wanting to sleep all day long. The only reason I ate was because I nurse and didn’t want my milk supply to drop.
I thought there was no way I’d go through that. I’m perfectly fine. Know the signs. Talk to someone if you are feeling lonely or like no one cares. Because people do care. They just don’t know what you are going through unless you say something.
It’s hard being home all day long. Binging on Netflix and Social Media because that’s all there is to do. But that’s a lie that’s been told too many times to me by someone who wants to see me isolated and afraid. The enemy is crafty and will use anything to get to you.
Lately I’ve been feeling like no one cares. The people that are my “friends” don’t text to just check on me. I feel like I’m always the one reaching out. And I know friendship is a two way street but when you are constantly putting in all the effort it can be exhausting.
It’s so important for us to be honest with ourselves because that’s why I found myself curled in a ball not wanting to get out of bed. I’ve got a pretty great husband that recognized the signs so that we could pray specifically for that. And it really has helped. I just have to remind myself of who God says I am.
If you need someone to talk to just know that I am here. We’ve got to stick together in this crazy thing called life. Just know that you are not alone. And you are not he only one who has those thoughts. I wouldn’t be able to get through this without God and my amazing husband.
Until next time. .
Bianca Marie ❤